Careful What You Wish For ...

Oh boy, i've done it this time! After living with the boyfriend for just a few short months, I seem to have found myself in a quandry.

I love him...I REALLY do! But after now i'm really questioning if it was the right move...literally!

Jesus, why can't I just be happy where I am? Why do I have to question and over-analyze? And why does he have to vaccumm ALL THE TIME!?

I find that once the initial flame burns out a just a bit, and you nestle into your seemingly normal life, that's when I am looking for the next escape route.

Just like my never ending line of job employment, I find I do this in relationships as well. Here is the never ending dialogue in my head;

"Yeah, ummm, this just wasn't a great fit, I really liked you/your company in the begining, but now I think I just think I need to move on to greener pastures"!

"No, no it's not you/your company, it's me! I feel as though you/your company may not really benefit from what I may have to offer and vice versa. We had a great run, you/your company, and I, I just feel that it's time to explore other options, preferably my own"!

"I will not speak ill of you/your company, just perhaps in my blogs, which you shall reamain anonomouys(SP). I hope you should do the same for me"

All right then, welcome to the crazy mind of Yours Truly....Xanax anyone?